Journey between Seas

My 34th birthday just passed. Man, I feel old. I grieve a lot but I'm learning to also be thankful for all that I have been given. Music speaks a lot to my soul. One of my most recent favorite songs is "Braver Still" it says and "it's okay to grieve the life that could not be. Last night I played the ungame with some friends. It was really nice, but I got sad when asked what the perfect life would have looked like. I said "travelling, being married with several children and homeschooling them. You see we all struggle with abandonment issues, it's human nature, no one does not fail us in some way or another. It's hard to understand a father that is always with him when all we have is earthly examples. Today I think it's okay to grieve the life that could not be but I can't dwell in it. I need to remember my father is so different from those of the world and that is the hope I long to share with others. He does everything for a reason and I am so blessed but yet sometimes I don't see it. I'm thankful for all the people he has and continues to put in my life and trusting that if I do my part He will provide.